So I've been dreaming..

And I'm thinking my dream team of pokemon would be:

I hate work and I hate wasting my time and I hate waking up early and I hate ringing you through and I hate the monotony and I hate the money and I hate the computers and I hate the questions and I hate the answers and I hate the standing and I hate the walking and I hate the clocking in and I hate the lonely lunches and I hate the distance and I hate the morals and I hate the time and I hate the energy and I hate the awkward and I hate the confusion and I hate the attitude and I hate the building and I hate the idea behind it all and I hate pretending.

Dust.

DONE.

Umm, so nobody really cares anything about me.
Sweeet.

I don't know what to think about you.
Hah.
Maybemaybenot.

Mostly not.
Not at all.
Sorry!

these are always such random intensely meaningful atthemoment kind of blogs.

Amazing!

One song and your whole day is lifted.



The sync is off, but I appreciate the effort.
n_______n
Tonight's gonna be a good night.

Sometimes it scares me,
How much I feel like I'm going crazy.
I'm not trying to be a burden.
But I undoubtedly am.

This blog is a waste of my time.
This is a waste of time.
All of this is horribly wasteful.

Why does this upset me so?
This is why I can't keep a journal.
Nobody talks back.

Photodump.

ALRIGHT.

Inappropriateeeeeee.
Stupid dreams.

Playing tricks on me.
I shouldn't even update with this.
But I want to look back and giggle shyly.

O.o

I can't wait until Missouri.
Nothing is keeping me here right now.

Dreams

Sometimes my sleepingdreams are so terrible I can't wait to wake up.
But the ones that are almost worse are the ones you love so much that when you wake up, you are dissapointed it wasn't real.

I had one of those dream today.
Ridiculous, but I wouldn't mind it at all if it had been real.



Last night I went bowling with some friends, and it was nice to see them and hang out.
I won two games out of three XD
Then we went to a 24 hour highway diner and ate, talked, and ate more XD

Good days,
This summer is being unusually nice to me.

More or less.

HP.

I love it,,

So much.

And,,
Start Rant:

People need to get over movies that aren't just like the book.
I already read the book, I don't need to see it literally translated.
And if you wanted to see something JUST like the book,
Go read the book.

End Rant.

Some things you do for money,

And some you do for lovelovelove.

CUTCUTCUT.

I cut my hair today.
Fantastic.
Maybe I'll put a picture of it up later.
Maybe not.

I am very lazy after all.

Well, I am here.

So many words.

O
H

my my,
ohmymy,

Look what you've become
It's the same for all of you
And then it catches up
And you notice what you're made of.

PS.

Sometimes some Postsecrets hit impossibly close to home.
1
2
3
4

This is what life sounds like.

YEAAAAAH!

I beat Crisis Core.
Win!

Such good characters and storyline and graphics and battle system and ideas and everything.

Things keeping me sane,,

NOOO.

Well today is officially ruined.

[edit]
Getting wisdom teeth pulled is not the worst thing.
Tasting blood all the time might be.
[edit edit]
Actually, the headaches, mouth throbbing,
inability to swallow, and so on..

Maybe that's the worst part.
Maybe the worst part is my head.



I'd say something,
But I would regret it terribly.
I've just been crying a lot lately.

Each battle is different.
None are easier or worse then others.
They are just different.

Don't think I could stress that enough.
I never forget, believe me.
I remember that constantly.
But I think I had to remind you tonight.
Things won't be the same.
But different isn't always bad.

Update.

I have terrible abandonment issues

from the past experiences of my life,

And I know I need to work on that.

But I'm tired of people making it worse.

Not that they care, Because they don't.

They do well to tell me so.

I'm not sure why everyone

That I try to make friends with

Just doesn't want to.

reyjamnmaocikrelndzyiaen
that jumble of letters are
often on my mind


And you will leave me too.
And you will leave me too.

What's so bad about me?

I JUST CAN'T WAIT!

ONCE WE SET SAIL,

IT'LL BE GREAT.

I don't care.

Neither do you.
Sometimes I feel like I am talking to a mannequin.

Nothing more to say, nothing more to say.
Nothing deep.
Nothing meaningful.

Nobody listens.
But I do care.

Painfully so.

Story of my life.

No jokes.

I'm always looking at things with such wide eyes.

If only you knew.

Sweeet.

Catatonic schizophrenia

is characterized by disturbances of movement that ma

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of the movements or spee

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. These patients

malnutrition, exhaustion, or self-injury. This subtype is

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ed with mood disorders.

I don't need help.

4th.

I don't like the 4th of july.
It makes me feel unsafe.

And it's pretty much almost everything I don't like, all in one day.

Explosions.
Loud noises that sound like bombs and guns.
Fire hazzards.
Hot nights, Mosquitos.
Drunk people.
Americana patriotism (if only for one day)

BOOO.

Sloth.