I hope today things get better.
I can't wait for January.
And November.
I think I'm about due for a birthday.

Forget everything.
Seriously.

I don't know why I'm even here.

I can't wait!

Nothing and Everything.
What it is and what it always will be.

I'm tired.
I'm drained.
I'm sorry.
I'm lonely.
I'm scared.
I'm sad.
I'm overwhelmed.
I'm nervous.
I'm trapped.

I dug another hole into my foot.
It hurts, but I've stopped caring.
My mind is elsewhere and I can't find it.

We are not the same I am a martian.

I loose you so often.
Where oh where do you go?

FUUUUU-

I just want to forget school and hang out with my friends always.
And work.
Forget work too!

Basically, all I have to do is outsmart the snow.

Out talk

Out wit

Out last

Freshman 15

I've lost like 15 pounds since graduating high school.

I've been doing a lot of this lately.
ALOTALOT

Today was gooooooood.

Sweet bipolar life XD
I think I need to stop staying up so late..

jesus christ if anybody for once
told me to have a nice day
or answered my text
or called me first
or made me feel like I
wasn't trying to hard all the time
to keep what little I had
with nothing in return

The photographer turns to me an says

Give me love.

flash

Give me attention.

flash

Give me anything.

flash

I'm a fool.
I deserve what I get.

SOMETIMES YOU ARE JUST MEAN TO ME.

and
don't you
don't you
just want to stay in bed
all day

Just keep swimming :]

The horses they're collision courses
I know exactly what you mean
'Cause I'm obsessed with what would happen
If we had never changed a thing.

I'm about to bust.


I swear mates of state sings my life away.

I'm an invisible monster,
and I'm incapable of loving anybody.
You don't know which is worse.

This only looks like love.

The ambiguity inherent to life.

I welcome it.

Ruins.

I've just ruined everything for everyone and myself.
I'm a black hole.

If I could pour my thoughts into your mind I would,
But words don't work that way.
And yes and no can't be the same thing out loud.

I don't know what to do
Except collapse in on myself.

Please don't ignore me,
I've got so much left to say.

I want to go to a time when
everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.

WAHWAH.

No parents!
No rules!
No pants!
No worries!

For a few days anywhooo.

AND I WILL JUMP ON FURNITURE.

Making new friends.

Trying new things.

Ouuuut of my comfort zone.

Innn to the unknown!

[edit] All is well!

Hahaha.
People are mean.
I don't like people sometimes.
I wish I were a fish,
I wouldn't have to deal with anything.

Can we lay in a field of colors and watch the sun sing melodies never heard by human ears before?
Because I would like that.

I think today will be nice.
n.n

Done with this.
Don't deserve people treating me terribly.
I'm not forever waiting.
And if you don't listen when I talk,
Then I'll stop talking.

And seal my mouth together.
And shut the walkway of my mind to you.
And we will part ways.

givetake

I can't do all the work.
You aren't the only one.
Though you think you are.

:D
haaaate

Lean in close and speak to me low
Tell me things you want me to know
'Cause i want to be the one

You need to

Lean to

Speak to me low

Say what you say,

But you don't need to lie.
Please just don't lie.
That's the last thing I ever want to hear.
You don't have to care,
You don't have to ever see me again if you don't want.
Just don't lie.
Because we are tired,
And I ache.
And the world breaks my heart sometimes.

I just want someone to talk to and listen.
I just need someone to talk to and listen.

I am going to run away tonight.

I'm quite obviously blaghh.
Don't even want to say it.

Wreckwreckwreck.

I follow the vibes,
only thing I can trust sometimes.

Skinsis.