New Years

I'm going to be that lady with the cats when I get older.

Under lock and key.

Tired!

Love and Affection.

I consistently feel like I'm incapable.

And you will surely find this news pleasing to your ears







You can surely try to be more alive

We are strangers.

I wish I was on the same track
as everyone else sometimes.

What I want
and what everyone
else
seems to
want

Are so vastly different.

It's hard to relate,
And I'm finding it harder
to find someone
who wants
to talk to


me.

We just can't help who we like.

weird
ugly
awesome
strong
beautiful
funny
young
strange
weak
cute
serious
odd
nice
interesting
old
whatever.

Getting my other two wisdom teeth out this morning.

Huzzah.

I had so much fun tonight :D
How nice it is so go out and actually do something
new and exciting

Hahahaha.
So pumped

right

now!

It don't matter.
None of this matters.

Now it is time for bed.

I'm trying to be someone else

Save one for the ending and
Push one over the ledge then step back

Someone who won't just forget shit like that

I'm trying to be someone else

Stave off all the moods and
Forget it 'cause the next one's close range

Someone who offers intentionless doubt

If words bred friends then you're the one who could
You're never around

Without small leads,
you're about as good as done

You're never around
I'm trying to be someone else

Save one for the ending and
Push one o'er the ledge then step back
Trying to keep all the baggage intact

If words bred friends then you're the one who could
You're never around
Without small leads, you're about as good as done
You're never around

I do nothing to provoke you and
I just hope that you still notice me

We're no longer than a ten-year-old
I just know that you'll still notice me

If words bred friends then you're the one who could
You're never around

You don't know me

At all.

I get upset easily.
Woohooo.

I think I may have pulled this off.


n___n

I want thaaat.

Ahist

Hello,

Ready for failure.

You've got a looooong way to go.

n.n

Few things make me feel worse than
feeling like nobody
is paying the slightest attention.







I enjoy people when I feel like they honestly appreciate me.
And I really enjoy people when I feel like they are actually listening
to the words falling out of my mouth.

I had a very good day today.

Movies I want to Watch:

Paper Heart
Moulin Rouge
Coraline
Gummo
Julien Donkey-Boy

I want to go to chicago.
I want it to be winter break.
I want to see people I enjoy.

And the Phoebe Ring of Saturn still blows my mind.

It's completely enormous.

I'm very tired.

Word of the day:

Insomnia.

I guess maybe I needed a night to just be completely unproductive with myself.

And stay up far too late,
And just cry,
And just be overwhelmed,
And just let go,
And just listen to sad music,
And just ignore all my calls,
And all my texts,
And think about how much work I have to do,
And write lists to keep track,
And completely disregard the list,
And just feel crappy,
And just think of how stressful school is,
And think about life,
And just cry,
And just not get any sleep.

Why don't you start at the begining?






Yes and when you reach the end... Stop.

And a rock feels no pain;

And an island never cries.

My fingers are always bloody and hurt.
I have the habits of a meth addict XD