I guess maybe I needed a night to just be completely unproductive with myself.

And stay up far too late,
And just cry,
And just be overwhelmed,
And just let go,
And just listen to sad music,
And just ignore all my calls,
And all my texts,
And think about how much work I have to do,
And write lists to keep track,
And completely disregard the list,
And just feel crappy,
And just think of how stressful school is,
And think about life,
And just cry,
And just not get any sleep.